The pursuit of consistent self-care lives in the penthouse of my mind, ever present, most often personified by the wagging finger of guilt and dread. Are you sure you want to eat that? You don’t really think you can handle all that, do you? You’ll get sick if you do that. Stay home. SAY NO.
Sometimes I get defiant and turn that voice off because it’s exhausting to care so much about the consequences of everything. I eat what I want. I take on too much. I go through cycles and each time, I pay the price.
A self-inflicted hectic pace has resulted in my absence here and as I start to feel some space opening in my life, I can hardly wait to fully embrace a gentler pace. Ever since high school, I’ve taken on multiple jobs and projects at the same time, my energy and attentions constantly divided. I’ve come to the sad realization that I’ve never given 100% to anything. How could I? It’s time to simplify, to focus in: I need to take care of this moment. I need to figure out what that means in the context of my life. Big decisions lay ahead…
In other news, I’ve missed this tiny corner of the blogosphere! I’m looking forward to spending more time blogging and connecting with you! In the meantime, here are some FACE FORWARD updates:
- I’d like to give a huge shout out to the winners of this year’s WEGO health activist blog awards. Congratulations to everyone involved! It was such an honour to be nominated for two categories and to have had the opportunity to discover the advocacy work of so many amazing individuals.
- I also want to spread the word about a fabulous Facebook group called “Changing the World When You are Chronically Ill, Disabled, or Housebound.” According to creator, Esther Smith, it’s a “collaborative community of chronically ill, disabled, and housebound individuals, coming together with ideas to make small differences in the world, changing the world together.” How awesome is that?
- Lastly, I’ve created a “Links: Get Connected!” page located on the top bar of the blog. I’ve listed a variety of sites ranging from lupus blogs to my favourite food bloggers, to some awesome blogs that will give your brain a break from health-related reading. If you want to be added to the list, email me at firstname.lastname@example.org!